Pensive Procrastination

Where is my dependency? Where do I go for comfort in trial and to celebrate in joy? Who do I run to first when I feel my heart break? What do I do with my anxieties and fears? God calls us to depend on Him first, that He is always our first love, that we put nothing else before Him. I'm reading a devotional right now that's all about putting God first, it's a devotional based off the book "I am Second". As I was thinking about that idea this morning I wondered at whether it's really that I have a problem placing myself in second or whether my problem is placing others before God. There is a comfort of having someone sit physically beside you, take you in their arms and hug you when you are feeling low. And I don't think that there is anything wrong with that. I know that God has given us others to support and encourage us, to give us hugs and sit with us when we need it. He has given us fellowship and relationship for a reason, because He has made us rel

Before we get down to business I  would like the share a few thing with you: 1) I dislike Rob's keyboard. I'm trying to be quiet but it is oh so loud and the only way to make the keys work is by pressing them hard. This will not do... 2) Sometimes I feel like my body likes to play tricks on me. This is how I imagine the conversation taking place... "OK guys let's make her nice and calm....That's it." "Move onto phase two, let's make her eyes feel nice and heavy and her brain feel nice and fuzzy." "Good! Good! She's thinking of going to bed early so she's well rested...right on schedule." "Keep her feeling tired guys we don't want her to realize our scheme..." "Ah, good she's feeling the comfort of her bed...curling up under the covers...and GO! GO! GO!" 3) I don't so much mind being awake, it's the being awake and knowing I have to get up at 5:20 that I don't like so much. 4)

This is a story that was written for my friends Katie and Hannah while I was in my Theology of the Human Person class. Basically I told them that I would write a story that started with the next three words that my professor spoke and whatever character name and back story they wanted. If you knew my theology professor you would understand the risk I was taking in starting a story off his next three words. Luckily, they were "was sent off" and the rest of the story follows.  Friedrich was sent off to the cheese factory one day to buy some apples. He thought that this was a little strange as he thought that apples grew on trees. Friedrich figured that this was just another strange quirk that Canada had. Even though Friedrich had come to Canada to study the art of apologizing he found he was learning a great deal about the world and it’s cultures as well. In fact, Canadians enjoyed eating apple pie and cheese...so perhaps it was not strange for apples to be sold at a cheese