Pensive Procrastination

I sat down at the computer today and decided that I was going to force myself to write. So, what follows is an unplanned, unedited flow of thoughts from my brain to your eyes as you read this blog. When writing I find that I float along from one idea to another, unsure about what really to write about until it seems like something "fits" and it flows easily. That lovely "fitting" moment has not happened for me over the past few days. That's the thing though, if I always wait for that wonderful moment where words just easily flow I will probably never really write anything. I find myself sometimes with an idea but I'm not in the "right" place or atmosphere to write and I just leave the idea on a shelf to come back to later. However, when I wander back to the shelf later to pick up the idea because I've found myself in this ideal environment I no longer really want to write. It's a conundrum. Actually, it's a conundrum that has a name.

It has been a long time since I have written here, and I truly don't expect anyone to still be following along. However, recently I have realized that if I ever want to really write, and get deep into it again I need to make it a consistent habit. I have started so many stories and never finished them. So, this is me, declaring to the solarverse (think Jim Gaffigan) that I am back- though certainly not with a vengeance. I believe that there is great insight that can be gained through reflection and analysis of the world, this is probably why I have pursued becoming a counsellor and also why I love learning and also teaching. Blogs, allow a medium for that reflection but in a different way than a journal might. In journaling all that is really important is that you know what you are talking about and there is no need to explain a concept so someone else can understand it. When blogging you're kind of forced to actually explain your perspectives, ideas and experiences in a way