Pensive Procrastination

Well, readers... I apologize for the lack of posting. Life got in the way and I have just not had time to sit down and write out a blog post. I did however have the time the other day to pen out a short story. So I hope that you enjoy reading it and that it blesses you wherever you may be on this New Years Eve! Sonya stood, trembling, outside the court of the King. She wrung her hands and commanded her feet to stay where they were. She locked her eyes on the entrance to the court and reminded herself over and over that this is where she needed, and wanted, to be even though she so badly wanted to run. Her heart pounded in her chest as she thought of this great King and how perfect and Holy He was. Sonya knew that she did not even deserve to stand outside His court, let alone be welcomed into His presence. Yet, she knew somehow that He wanted to see her, and He had called her there many times before. The longer she stood waiting to go before Him the more she began to think of all th...

So, the work at school is piling up and coming to an end, so obviously I feel like writing blogs a lot more. I was thinking about this as I sit with my notes for a sermon on Luke in front of me and I am wondering why, in the busiest times of the year work wise, I feel the most compelled to write blogs. Then I realized, it's because it is the time where I am having to figure out all my thoughts from the term. I'm looking over all my notes and re-reading what I've underlined in texts and I'm thinking about the application of all of it in my life. My last counselling assignment was due this past week, so all that fun is over. Now I have before me a lot of biblical and theological writing, which, my friends, is not my forte. I love it, but it takes me longer to think out. I have three pages of notes which I'm hoping will turn into an 8-10 page paper, including sermon notes. I never in my wildest dreams imagined that I would be writing out sermon notes. Right now I...

She ran through the woods, frighten by what followed her. Pushing through trees and branches and stumbling over roots. The panic overtook her as she glimpsed the light through the trees... the light that she so desperately wanted to reach. She knew she had been there before, in that light. She knew she had felt the warmth. Yet she was here in the darkness again. She cried out, knowing that someone would hear her. The thought of running anymore overwhelmed her. It was so much easier to fall into the darkness, to fall on her knees and give up. It was what she was used to and she felt a strange sense of comfort in this dark forest. But she knew, she knew that the light that she was seeing glimpses of held a glory and peace beyond what she could imagine. Why was this forest so dense? Why was it such a struggle? She was cut and bruised. Cut and bruised from falling and deciding not to get up. Sometimes, when this darkness felt like if would overcome she would just curl up i...

There have been so many things on my mind lately that I just don't know where to start. Yesterday before bed I was reading my Bible and just reflecting in a journal and I wrote that I felt like my thoughts were like mosquitos at the end of May, there were so many of them just flying around. I could hear them, that annoying buzzing noise, but they weren't landing so I couldn't capture any of them. Do you guys know what I mean?! Part of what has been on my mind is writing and how much I have learned that I love it over the years. I especially find that I am more in love with writing and feel myself drawn to writing more when I'm reading something that inspires me. I found that when I was taking a particularly inspiring English course in university the amount that I wrote would sky rocket. When I read C.S. Lewis I find myself sitting there with pictures just running through my mind that inspire me and make me want to pick up my computer and write. I love C.S. Lewis. I ...

A Random Compilation of Thoughts: 1. I'm sorry for the blog hiatus. A lot has been going on my side of the world that has me being more social and having less time to sit and think and ponder life. I know you have all been missing me deeply and passionately, just know that I miss you too...just maybe not as much. 2. Have you ever watched Gilmore Girls? I started watching it a year after my father, and it became our "thing". The show is so dysfunctional sometimes, I think that if I ever taught a counselling class I'd make them watch Gilmore Girls and talk about how they would counsel them and think about what different theories would say. I have a quote for you from Gilmore Girls that I have loved recently. If you ever sat and wondered "What do Alysha's thoughts look like?" Here is the scary reality. Lorelai: My brain is a wild jungle full of scary gibberish. I'm writing a letter, I can't write a letter, why can't I write a letter? I...

I suddenly have this deep desire to go on a canoe trip. While I realize that this might be a leetle silly right now, because I would freeze my butt off and I kinda like being able to sit (and let’s be honest I just like my tush)... I really want to go on one next summer. I love canoe trips.  I love the excuse to be dirty and not shower for 5...or 7... days. I love making my own fire and perpetually smelling like campfire. I love being TIRED at the end of the day because I just canoed for four hours and portaged two 1 km portages a few times each. I love just being tired cause I’ve been out in the sun. I love the feel of jumping into the cool water, clothes still on or in a bathing suit (though the former can be more fun), and feeling my skin sigh in relief. I love how disgusting food tastes amazing and how it is totally acceptable to eat s’mores for dinner. I love watching the sunset and hearing nature’s noise change with it.   I also love the stars...oh my g...

So, I've started this post about three times. Every time I start off with a certain point I end up realizing that it's not really what I think or that it doesn't really convey what I've been thinking about. So I'm going to do this in a list kind of format. 1. Words are powerful. They have an impact to tear down and to really build people up. The Bible talks A LOT about being careful with our words, taming our tongues and watching the words that come out of our mouths. When we were little my mom always said, "If you can't say anything nice don't say anything at all." We called it the Thumper rule. It can be hard to figure out what this means for me as I blog. I love giving words of encouragement to people, it's probably one of the ways I really express to people how much they mean to me, that and gifts. I love giving gifts. It's so fun! I think that I get this from my mom. She always gives the best, most thoughtful gifts. Words of ...